thinking of [him]
Tuesday, December 26, 2006
Merry christmas everybody! *~'`*
When I tried to sleep last night, I couldn't... Somehow somewhy, I thought about 536... Aw man! It's been a year now, I can't believe I still think about him sometimes! But then again, how can I help it.
When I tried to sleep last night, I couldn't... Somehow somewhy, I thought about 536... Aw man! It's been a year now, I can't believe I still think about him sometimes! But then again, how can I help it.
Last Christmas I gave you my heart
But the very next day
You gave it away
This year, to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special
...Which I haven't found yet or anything... Haha... Anyways, that lyric is really exact... To, you know, my situation with him. I felt kinda sad all of a sudden, and ended up writing in my diary and praying for people in my life and wishing them good things the whole night.
I mean, okay, I don't even make an effort for this guy! I don't like... call him even though I have secretly researched his home number (couldn't get his handphone number). I have no guts. Call me a coward. I can change my tuition schedule to Saturday so that I can meet him evey week but I didn't. Call me a coward... Well actually, it's not cowardice in that case... I go out on Saturdays! I don't wanna have tuition replace my fun...
And this thing about him, I'll always keep in a special place in my <3... heheh =") Of course! It's a fairytale in my life...
my [prayers]
Thursday, December 21, 2006
I pray and I know I can.
Yes it's true. Whenever I'm in trouble, or feel worried about something, I will pray. Like the time my Dad had dengue fever, I was so petrified - I thought Daddy was going to leave me. I prayed and he was alright. The time he also had appendicities, and was going in the operation room, I prayed for him, and he went through it just fine. Even this sickness, I pray to God every night, wishing to get better, and now I am.
Even though maybe all these "miracles" could happen even without me praying so hard, praying is my only torch of hope in these situations. I begin to depend on it, and I begin to have faith. It's embedded in my mind that prayers come through and things will be alright - which is the bad thing. I feel I'm getting too dependant. But since I am aware of it, I know I won't be so stupid, that if one day, during one moment in my life where I desperately need a miracle and it doesn't come true, it won't be a shock for me. Believing will not help much without ourselves making an effort.
Yes it's true. Whenever I'm in trouble, or feel worried about something, I will pray. Like the time my Dad had dengue fever, I was so petrified - I thought Daddy was going to leave me. I prayed and he was alright. The time he also had appendicities, and was going in the operation room, I prayed for him, and he went through it just fine. Even this sickness, I pray to God every night, wishing to get better, and now I am.
Even though maybe all these "miracles" could happen even without me praying so hard, praying is my only torch of hope in these situations. I begin to depend on it, and I begin to have faith. It's embedded in my mind that prayers come through and things will be alright - which is the bad thing. I feel I'm getting too dependant. But since I am aware of it, I know I won't be so stupid, that if one day, during one moment in my life where I desperately need a miracle and it doesn't come true, it won't be a shock for me. Believing will not help much without ourselves making an effort.
i was [sick]
Saturday, December 16, 2006
Hey guys...
I made a crucial mistake - sleepovering in chu's house when she was sick... =(
At first, I was suffering serious stomach cramps...But I ignored it...Then I vomitted at chu's house... ='( argh...
We played DDR the whole night and slept at 3am...
when i woke up, i woke up with a killer sore throat.
Then it became a fever...
When I reached home, I was dead and I immediately fell asleep.
I woke up, after 3.5hours of sleep, feeling better.
Then I slept at 10pm..
My AC was off and I was already wrapped in my blanket but I shivered in the coldness.
I quickly put on a jacket and winter socks, but it was still cold.
But I fell asleep anyway.
I woke up at 12am... sweating like hell. I took off my jacket and tried to sleep, but my nose hurt a lot because of the hot air as I breathed out... For a long time I suffered, my nose hurting like hell... Then I figured out I might as well breathe in with my nose and breathe out with my mouth. And it worked.
Now the worst part... when I woke up at 2am... I felt like I was burning...
I measured my temperature and the thermometer said 39.5 degrees celcius... I was so scared, I rushed into my parent's room and woke my mother up.
Thank god for my mother, she helped me through the whole night, placing cold towels on my forehead, getting me water... giving me medicine... Finally at 4am, I could sleep... Woke up at 5am, then slept again and woke up at 7am...
By then my temperature was 37.3 degrees. Thank god.......
And now, I'm free of my fever (hopes it doesn't come back), but I still have my sore throat and my flu is getting worse... Oh well... *sigh*
I made a crucial mistake - sleepovering in chu's house when she was sick... =(
At first, I was suffering serious stomach cramps...But I ignored it...Then I vomitted at chu's house... ='( argh...
We played DDR the whole night and slept at 3am...
when i woke up, i woke up with a killer sore throat.
Then it became a fever...
When I reached home, I was dead and I immediately fell asleep.
I woke up, after 3.5hours of sleep, feeling better.
Then I slept at 10pm..
My AC was off and I was already wrapped in my blanket but I shivered in the coldness.
I quickly put on a jacket and winter socks, but it was still cold.
But I fell asleep anyway.
I woke up at 12am... sweating like hell. I took off my jacket and tried to sleep, but my nose hurt a lot because of the hot air as I breathed out... For a long time I suffered, my nose hurting like hell... Then I figured out I might as well breathe in with my nose and breathe out with my mouth. And it worked.
Now the worst part... when I woke up at 2am... I felt like I was burning...
I measured my temperature and the thermometer said 39.5 degrees celcius... I was so scared, I rushed into my parent's room and woke my mother up.
Thank god for my mother, she helped me through the whole night, placing cold towels on my forehead, getting me water... giving me medicine... Finally at 4am, I could sleep... Woke up at 5am, then slept again and woke up at 7am...
By then my temperature was 37.3 degrees. Thank god.......
And now, I'm free of my fever (hopes it doesn't come back), but I still have my sore throat and my flu is getting worse... Oh well... *sigh*
Wednesday, December 13, 2006
Okay, so my exams weren't that bad... Was it? If I failed 2 subjects, do you think it's bad? Actually depends... Anyways, I failed Chemistry and A-Maths which I wasn't supposed to fail!!! Arghh!!! How de hell would I remember that x against y-axis is actually x is the y-axis and y is the x-axis?!??! Yes, because of that mistake, I lost 6 POINTS... Which means I would have passed my A-Maths... Oh god...
I think I got the highest for my CS (computer studies) exam... I'm not sure. But they said I did. Yes I hope so. 'Coz I ain't gotten any rank 1`s since history! Which is so sad! My English was what, rank 2 last term? -.-
I want a rank 1... I want a rank 1... But I don't think I will get it... Now that I think about it... Because I didn't do well at all for CS last term. Argh, somebody must've beaten me already,,, Cathy or something... Damn she's a genious! She can do anything! O.O and she's pretty, I'm not surprised so many guys go after her. You want her photo? I can't show you... It's confidential... =b
What have I been doing recently? Joining clubs in Friendster... Getting ranks... Joining competitions... In fact, why don't you guys help me out by voting for me? =)
Most Kawaii LoveLove: http://www.friendster.com/35925572
Covergirl: http://www.friendster.com/20917875
My name is Vi-K... Vi-k?? Vi-K??? Vina Kosasih... get it?
You can vote by message (if you're not a member of the club) or by testimonial (if you are). Thanks, appreciate it! ^^
Yesterday, I had my excursion... We played in the mud, tug-o-war, cross the log, ride on the bull, plant seedlings... all those farm stuff... I had to change 3 times!! Anyways, I'm getting bored now. Cya laters...
I think I got the highest for my CS (computer studies) exam... I'm not sure. But they said I did. Yes I hope so. 'Coz I ain't gotten any rank 1`s since history! Which is so sad! My English was what, rank 2 last term? -.-
I want a rank 1... I want a rank 1... But I don't think I will get it... Now that I think about it... Because I didn't do well at all for CS last term. Argh, somebody must've beaten me already,,, Cathy or something... Damn she's a genious! She can do anything! O.O and she's pretty, I'm not surprised so many guys go after her. You want her photo? I can't show you... It's confidential... =b
What have I been doing recently? Joining clubs in Friendster... Getting ranks... Joining competitions... In fact, why don't you guys help me out by voting for me? =)
Most Kawaii LoveLove: http://www.friendster.com/35925572
Covergirl: http://www.friendster.com/20917875
My name is Vi-K... Vi-k?? Vi-K??? Vina Kosasih... get it?
You can vote by message (if you're not a member of the club) or by testimonial (if you are). Thanks, appreciate it! ^^
Yesterday, I had my excursion... We played in the mud, tug-o-war, cross the log, ride on the bull, plant seedlings... all those farm stuff... I had to change 3 times!! Anyways, I'm getting bored now. Cya laters...
they're [over]
Sunday, December 10, 2006
Yes, YES!!! My exams are over!!! Finally, I can be free, freeeeee!!! .......Well not really, I still got school next week.... Argh =_= I don't want to know how I did for my exams, I don't! I know I did bad. It would just ruin my whole...em...holiday! %&^*(^%$$%^ Gah I don't even want to go to the excursion on Tuesday. I just want my holliiddaaayyy!!! This school is so meaannn.... Just get me my holiday already for god's sake!!
I already bought the hair-dye, but I can't dye it yet because of school =.= I wanna do it.... lyk... now! Anyways, I got the fake-eyelashes yesterday, and it's pretteh bad. Here's some reasons why you shouldn't buy it:
1) It's hard to put on.
2) It's frustrating to put on.
3) The glue keeps clotting in its tube!
4) It's stressful.
5) It won't stay on my lids!
So I gave up trying to use it. ... Or ever going to use it in the future. I don't know if other people might have the same problem as I do, but god!!! Well, Ratna could use it, so... But seriously, I hate them. I'd just use mascara. More reliable, easier, convenient... I wouldn't even worry about my fakeys falling off as I walk down the streets! (which I didn't of course, I didn't even get it to stay)
Well, anyways, I might update laterz... I'm kinda bored now =.= cya!
I already bought the hair-dye, but I can't dye it yet because of school =.= I wanna do it.... lyk... now! Anyways, I got the fake-eyelashes yesterday, and it's pretteh bad. Here's some reasons why you shouldn't buy it:
1) It's hard to put on.
2) It's frustrating to put on.
3) The glue keeps clotting in its tube!
4) It's stressful.
5) It won't stay on my lids!
So I gave up trying to use it. ... Or ever going to use it in the future. I don't know if other people might have the same problem as I do, but god!!! Well, Ratna could use it, so... But seriously, I hate them. I'd just use mascara. More reliable, easier, convenient... I wouldn't even worry about my fakeys falling off as I walk down the streets! (which I didn't of course, I didn't even get it to stay)
Well, anyways, I might update laterz... I'm kinda bored now =.= cya!
xoxo
it's [raining]
Tuesday, December 5, 2006
It's raining so hard outside.
The thunder's so loud.
But you know what?
The sky is still bright.
So turn that frown upside-down!
<3
Nawh that's just a stupid poem I made out of boredom. I'm waiting for my tution teacher to come... By the way, my Maths-D exam is hard, though not as hard as my Bio exam... Phew,,, I wonder how my A-Maths exam will be... Nervous thinking about it!!!
I'm going to dye my hair v.light brown for the holidays, look forward to tons of photos! ^^ (if it turns out nice, that is =p) Yes, I wonder how it will turn out!!! So far I've only dyed my hair chestnut brown, red, black, and now it's the first time dying it light brown... w00t w00t, can't wait!!!
I wish the holidays are here already... I wanna do make-overs, shopping, sleepovers, hang-out at the mall,,, o gawd it's been so long since I stepped into a mall!!! I miss shopping T.T
You know last time, I hated shopping... All my clothes were the same, and my parents encouraged me to shop. And now I've become a shopaholic and they complain how they shouldn't have encouraged me to shop last time! ^^" haha... I'm a difficult kind of daughter...
The thunder's so loud.
But you know what?
The sky is still bright.
So turn that frown upside-down!
<3
Nawh that's just a stupid poem I made out of boredom. I'm waiting for my tution teacher to come... By the way, my Maths-D exam is hard, though not as hard as my Bio exam... Phew,,, I wonder how my A-Maths exam will be... Nervous thinking about it!!!
I'm going to dye my hair v.light brown for the holidays, look forward to tons of photos! ^^ (if it turns out nice, that is =p) Yes, I wonder how it will turn out!!! So far I've only dyed my hair chestnut brown, red, black, and now it's the first time dying it light brown... w00t w00t, can't wait!!!
I wish the holidays are here already... I wanna do make-overs, shopping, sleepovers, hang-out at the mall,,, o gawd it's been so long since I stepped into a mall!!! I miss shopping T.T
You know last time, I hated shopping... All my clothes were the same, and my parents encouraged me to shop. And now I've become a shopaholic and they complain how they shouldn't have encouraged me to shop last time! ^^" haha... I'm a difficult kind of daughter...
mid-year [exam]
Friday, December 1, 2006
My Mid-Years are here and OMG it's been so hard these last two days!!! I've had Biology and Bahasa Indonesia and English. They're hard... Even English was hard!!! What the hell?!??! How can that be??? Anyways, wish me luck for the next exams, my brother want to use the computer now. Buh-bye~
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