strive harder

i just cried.
after a phone call with ratna i realized that it won't get me anywhere if i keep comparing myself to other people. i have to work hard. keep out all the negative thoughts that have been haunting me and keep a calm head. even though it's hard and the results wont show immediately, and i would cry a hundred more times and fall again and again, i still have to pick myself up and work harder. God, please help me...